i had to leave, i had to live.

He waited for her in that terrible place where a clear barrier separated him from everything that was precious and important to him. As he waited, he felt emptiness eat away inside of him, he felt it eating and tearing everything that goes past its path apart. He wished and prayed to God to give him one more chance to see her face to shine through and fight the darkness that he felt inside of him.

The final call was now announced, it was time for him to leave, He had almost given up and almost walked away until he saw the most beautiful image in the world that he wished for, and it’s the image of her running towards him. He felt the darkness leave his body in an instant as he saw her face shine through. A tear dropped from her eye as she was to say her final goodbye and as they put their palms together in that clear barrier that separated them both he felt satisfied yet sadness still lingering through.

He was now to leave everything behind, He then walked away and said his final goodbye. He boarded the plane and sat on his seat then he found his phone ringing, it was her, still crying but brave enough to say “I love you so much...” He found himself breaking down as he heard those words. He left the country that he now considered home. He left the person that meant the most in his life, he left the people he considered as family behind, he left everything behind.

Few weeks have gone by and still it was the image of her stuck in his head. His heart desires for the day that they meet again, he promised that he will wait for that day to arrive. He promised to be as strong as he can be.
And when he thought that everything was already as real as it can be. She asked for him to let go. He was shattered into pieces and was to break down but remembered the promise that he made, the promise to be as strong as he can be. Now, he finds himself wishing to God that he should not have granted his wish and now he is trying to let go of that feeling that he ones thought was so real. And eventually, he will.

here's my new favourite song:



you played me dirty, your game was so bad
you toyed with my affliction, had to fill out my prescription
for the remedy, i had to set you free

if I can’t have you, let love set you free
to fly your pretty wings around