thanks to you

what you said to me was eye-opening
it's time for a big change..
i was not brought up to be this way
therefore i should start acting
like how i did back then..

i said nothings left to keep me motivated
but i was definitely wrong
i completely forgotten
that from the start,
i only wanted to make her proud..
&& that i was doing this for her and only for her..
that should be enough to keep me motivated

thanks for reminding me of that..
you sir, are a very good friend indeed.
Peter Li

one wish.

if i could have anything right now,
it would be peace of mind
and happiness..
and for a brief three and a bit minutes
this song gave me just that..

what's left?

everyday is like a battle
and i'm struggling to survive

it's not any ordinary battle
as i fight against the dark..

every single day sadness lingers through
loneliness has overtaken
and emptiness pierced through what's
left of my broken heart..

i may sound like an optimist
but an optimists still thinks negative
and at times i have negative thoughts
that may even beat a pessimist's

i write positive things because
that's what i want to see
i says nice things
because that's what i want to hear
which indeed, made me delusional..

now, what's left of me?
it's a body, so empty
yet it moves, it functions
not because it wants to
but because it needs to..

somebody save me..

go forth! and live

crying does not
indicate weakness..
it is an indication of strength!

since birth, it has always
been a sign that we are alive!

live your life..

i lived a fulfilling life when i was back in Adelaide..

during that time, i felt that i was actually living
for a purpose..
i felt that all was real, and felt that i belonged.

now, i'm back here in the Philippines, and i did, i ones
thought of giving up but surprisingly.. i did not.
why? for no certain reason.
just thought i should follow the rule of life and that is to keep
going and to pursue what i first started.

i now feel like a nobody
living in a strange place, where from the start, i did not feel
that i belong. but with that challenge presented, why give up now??
when i've already started something beautiful and established a great
beginning. giving up is never an option, it has been but i was wise enough not to choose that option, because if i did..
it would have been like throwing it all away, what i've established along with the memories and friendships that were formed.

since birth, we were all presented with the same challenge, and that is to live
our lives, it all just depends to each and everyone of us on how we live it
and what path we will choose along the way.

these days, i've been having a storm of thoughts, everything that i encounter
makes me think of what life could be or have been.. having a chat with Peter and reading his blog made me think a lot more.

i thought that the past was great or even perhaps, beautiful and because of that thought, we think we already know it all, experienced it all and lived it all
but we actually do not, we have not experienced enough and therefore we still know nothing..

we are all still young, and we still have a lot ahead of us
and i have to be honest and say that i would not mind re-living the
past, it would be great but we can not live on the thought of how beautiful
the past had been but instead to keep swinging, form new memories and live the present in order to discover the mystery of what lies ahead, because the past may have been great but it was only a beginning of something much greater..


it's a start of a revolution called freedom..

P.S. life is easy..
people just make it extremely difficult
with that thought in mind
we have to fight and we should not be defeated
we have to keep going
and take whatever challenges presented along the way
and set whatever mistakes we have aside..

&& always remember, that the mistakes
that we make, made and will make
are only mistakes unless we learn from it..

no lettuce please..

it's the simple things like these..
that make my day..

silence

silence, something oh so silent
was something we can never have..

P.S. thank God ones again
because you made everything possible
and for leading a new typhoon into
a different direction..

oh man!

i slept to the sound of people singing karaoke
and found myself waking up this morning to the
sound of people singing karaoke..

seriously man, WTF is wrong with people??

and to ruin such a beautiful "Jason Mraz - I'm Yours"
song, by mumbling through the whole song
and making fun of the lyrics
to me, it was all just unforgiveable