a letter from the anonymous

one more day in the country side
i decided to make the best out of it.. went to church today
and went to have halo halo (a filipino dessert) with some friends,
cousins and brother also i decided to clean around my mom's grave
and cleared all the weeds. it was an eventful day.

tomorrow i'll be back in the city, i'm not looking forward to it
but i needed to make a start sooner or later and i decided that the day
would be tomorrow. sometime today i was looking through stuff on my computer
and tried to see if i can find something that would motivate me. i found heaps of photos and it did bring back many good memories... but then i found a letter, a letter from a good friend who i'd just rather name anonymous in order to keep the privacy.

"Vince its been a pleasure having you with us the past 3 months.
We got to know eachother better and shared many fun moments. Your a great friend and im glad i had the opportunity to get to know you better. I feel so bad and sorry that your leaving, nobody should have to go through this, and i know you have to stay strong for your brother but at times like this, when you have unanswered questions and many angered thoughts and sadness which may suround your days, there is someone out there, above all who you can talk to. Give him a chance, you've oredy accepted him into your life, which is the best decision you've made. Lean on him, talk to him, love him, worship him, and praise him. Because he has all the answers you'll ever need, he'll provide for you, love you, give you everything in his kingdom.
Over the past 3 months you've help build my confidence, singing at karaoke, and funked up my mind trying to get me back with Cherie, but i gues this is the end of that. and i thank you for putting up with our familys constant mocking, and for sticking up for me with the cherie thing that got you and michael into an arguement.
Church has been amazing with you around, It was Gods decision to make me bring you to church, and now ive done that, ive set you back on track, and now its up to you to keep him before everything else. It works, put him first and he'll give you everything that you ask for and more. Its hard and its confusing but one day you'll truly understand why its so vitally important to put him above all things.
I can say that it was the devils doing in parting you with your friends and new families, but no matter what his done, God will always have a plan and a purpose for you, this may not have been his plan but he has a purpose for you. You have potential, speak out to the crowd, change peoples lives just like we've changed yours and just like the message in service, go through Gods fridge anytime you want, you have the authority to heal others and bless people around you.
We're all going to miss you very much, i think ive grown acustomed to you sleeping in my room, its going to be alot more quite and lonely now. but i thank you for being an awsome friend, for coming to church, for eating with me and my friends, for getting to know my friends, for nagging me about cherie, for playing the rating game with me, for karaoke nights, for doing sit ups with me, for everything. your a very special person, especially to God, and although we part now, we'll cross paths again if you keep following God, because me, Cherie, Zoe, Cheryl, Elysia and Melissa will always follow God, and one day we'll definiatly meet.
Your going to have it hard over there and thigns arent going to go the way you hope, and its going to be hard making new friends, so at times like this, talk to God, get to know him better and his purpose for you will provide you the equipment the spirit, the mentality and physical strength you need. Always follow God no matter what the devil puts in your head, no matter the situation, because rememebr God gave his son too, he will always understand.
Jacky wants to use the computer now, i have to leave it at this, but thanks for being a special friend. im very dissapointed that your leaving, we'll keep in touch and crying helps. (Y)

may you be blessed by the Lord always. i'll see you soon.
much love: Anonymous"

this letter did boost my confidence and motivated me to make a start. to the person who wrote this, you know who you are and to be honest if God would give me a chance to have another brother, it would be you. may you be blessed by the Lord as well and i will definitely see you soon. take care!